Alright…I know I’m a little late to the 2017 reflection party. I wasn’t even sure I was going to do it this year, but when I thought about it more, there is something so gratifying to me to look back and reflect, on the highs and the lows. I find often I’m moving so quickly I have to very consciously make time to pause and reflect, to take a step back and realize how much I have to be grateful for.
A lot happened in 2017 – I traveled to Greece, Chicago, Arizona, Nashville, Denver, and Washington D.C.
I backpacked the back country of the Canadian Rockies in Banff National Park and the Inca trail to Machu Picchu.
I completed my 100 hour trauma sensitive yoga teacher training, which included restorative teacher training and a Reiki certification, and started my 300 hour advanced yoga teacher training. I celebrated a year of studio teaching at Yoga on High and started volunteer yoga teaching to homeless youth every week. I loosened my grip of control on every aspect of my life even more. I learned to more openly accept and give love, unconditionally, and to be more patient. Some relationships ended and some strengthened, all of which I grew from. I met some really amazing, beautiful, inspiring people. I ate more seafood and more carbs, and was more than okay with it. I did my 2nd juice cleanse, not from a place of losing weight, but from a place of giving my gut and digestive system a break, and it was like “THANK YOU”! I didn’t blog much, continued to have the intention of doing it more, and never did, and I’m okay with that too. I didn’t run as much and strength trained more than I have in the last 8+ years. I still did run another Cap City Half Marathon, and another marathon, the Marine Corps marathon. I got Miso, my kitten, who has become the love of my life and brought my so much joy. I experienced friends committing to the love of their lives. I watched countless sunrises and sunsets. And ALL of that was beautiful.
I used to set lofty New Years resolutions. I still don’t think there is anything wrong with doing that, but this was the first year I didn’t even think about doing it, and I’m content with that decision…actually I’m more than content with it. It feels COMPLETELY right not to do it this year. Along the same river I’ve been flowing down, a sort of loosening of my grip and type-A -ness, I’m just going to continue going down it because I’m liking it. Go with the flow, receiving things as they come, instead of trying to setup every detail ahead of time and getting upset when it doesn’t work out the way I had imagined or planned. I have loose ideas of what I would like to do in 2018, like continue traveling and seeing the world, and exploring new foods, and really listening to people when they speak, but none of these will make or break my 2018 if they don’t come to fruition. They’re just nice to haves. 🙂
If I were to define my 2017 in one work it would be grateful. My word I set at the beginning of the year was authenticity, to myself and when communicating others. I’m not sure whether I “achieved” that or not, but oh well, big deal…What I enjoy most about reflection is the opportunity to recognize and realize how much we have. All these things I did in 2017 were opportunities a LOT of people don’t get and I really saw that in the situations I put myself in in 2017, weaving myself in communities that don’t have all the luxuries I have in my life, some things I have taken for granted my whole life, like having parents who support and love me, or the financial and physical ability to go to a grocery store and buy whatever I perceive I need. I would be with these people and they were SO happy still, with so much less than I have. It brought tears to my eyes at times. They were still grateful for what they did have. I don’t feel guilty for having what I do have. I see no benefit in bringing in that negative energy. But the recognition is now there. I am SO beyond grateful for the love I am constantly supported and surrounded by, including from you all, and the opportunities I have been given.
I encourage you to reflect on your 2017, whether it was a “hard” year or an “easy” year (it’s all perception), and see what comes up. No judgement. Can you be okay with whatever comes up? You are still whole. You are still here if you’re reading this. You are loved (if not by anyone else, by me:)). What single word describes your 2017?
Good things are on the horizon, 2018! Even if I don’t know yet what that is…:)